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Thursday, November 26, 2009

保持距离就是注定寂寞...

经听过一句话...
“ 付出真心才会得到真心,
却也可能上的彻底;
保持距离就能保护自己,
却也注定永远寂寞。”


开始...
只相信第一句...
实践后...
真的不的不让人信服...
原来...
我们都只能在付出和距离之间选这一样...
付出...
会冒险的伤害自己....
保持距离...
却又让感情生疏...
感觉寂寞...

过伤害后...
没有勇气再给信心自己去付出...
所以决定保持距离...
但是...
也注定了...
一旦保持距离...
关系就得在一段距离外...
意味着别人也不会对你认真地付出...
你也注定一个人寂寞...

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

倒霉的一天

倒霉...
倒霉到极点的一天 !!!
一大清早肚子痛的连学都上不了...
睡醒起来, 到楼下发觉自己的脚车不见了,被人偷了...
考试又不会...
现在facebook 上不到 !!!

真的是倒霉到极点 !!!
到现在晚餐都吃不下,身体不舒服,没胃口...
haiz...

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

圓緣圈


缘是缘,让我们把彼此的圈画得更圆,圈住彼此的圆...

Friday, July 24, 2009

23/07

23/07

二个星期到美门做义工,这次比起上次有很大的不同...
害怕的感觉没有了...第一次会害怕应该是因为害怕不能与那里的小朋友沟通吧,因为心里一紧有一种概念他们并不容易相处...
虽然与那里的小朋友相处是需要时间和耐心,但发觉了,原来那份成就感会让我肯开心...
每一次从美门回家后,心情都会变好...
虽然只去了两次,但我已经很喜欢那里...

次不同的地方是,我教的小朋友-晓燕...她已经能够开始慢慢对我建立信任了...开始回应我了...
这种情况在第一次我见她的时候是完全没发生过的...
我真的很开心...
她开始接受我后,我不知觉又一种好奇心想要多认识她,了解它...甚至希望能够融入他的世界里..帮助她...

目标:要尽量帮助美门的小朋友...让他们更开心...

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卑的感觉好像少了...很开心...
可能有压力才会使人进步...
从失败中学习,从挫折里站起来...
这样才会获得更精彩,让更多的人快乐...

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Depression

无形中有一股压力,
压得我喘不过气来...真的很辛苦,很累...
心里很明白那是自己的问题,
可是真的不知道怎样去控制,怎样去克服...

对别人来说,每一天在上就是一个新的开始,一个开心的开始....
可是现在的我并不是那么想,
每一天比上眼睛的那一刻就是最开心的时刻,可是一到早上睁开眼睛,
第一个感觉就是害怕,只有害怕,害怕....

我现在是depression 吗?
psychology student 应该有这样的问题吗?
???

Sunday, July 12, 2009

100 truths

001. Real name → Yap Ke Xin
002. Nickname(s)→Mushroom, Mushie, Babymushie(restrict to babyzhu), Soh Poh
004. Zodiac sign →Aquarius
005. Male or female → Female
006. Elementary → Tadika Church
007. Middle School → SJK(c) Gunung Rapat
008. High School->SMJK Ave Maria Convent Ipoh
009. College School --> UTAR
010. Hair color → Black.
011. Long or short → Short.
012. Loud or Quiet → Loud and quiet
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
014. Phone or Camera → Phone.
015. Health freak → Nope
016. Drink or Smoke? → None
017. Do you have a crush on someone? Yes
018. Eat or Drink → Both.
019. Piercings → None.
020. Tattoos → None.

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → None
024. First best friend → Ooi Chen
025. First award → Singing Competition
026. First crush → Primary school...i think...
027. First pet → None
028. First big vacation → Shanghai, China
030. First big birthday → 19 birthday

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → Nothing.
050. Drinking → Nothing.
052. I'm about to →Sleep
053. Listening to → Nothing
054. Plans for today →Study for my exam...still dare to blog here...
055. Waiting for → Tomorrow to pass

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → Yes, but not now...
059. Want to get married? → It depends.
060. Careers in mind →Counsellor, or a child psychologist.



WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?
068. Lips or eyes → Both
070. Shorter or taller? → Taller
072. Romantic or spontaneous → Romantic.
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → Both.
074. Sensitive or loud→ Sensitive.
075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship.
076. Trouble maker or hesitant → Neither.

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → Yes
081. Ran away from home → No.
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → No
083. Killed somebody → No.
084. Broken someone's heart → Yes, i think...thats long time agoooo...
085. Been arrested → No.
087. Cried when someone died → hmhm...don't remember ald..

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → Yes
090. Miracles → Yes
091. Love at first sight → NO
092. Heaven → Yes.
093. Santa Claus → NO.
094 Tooth Fairy--> NO.
095. Kiss on the first date -> NO.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → Yes, my babyzhu
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → Yes
099. Do you believe in God → Yes.
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people→Pooi sie, Joel, Catherene, Cheah mann, Khang You, Cheeesy, calvin, Jing yi, lan lan, pikachu

Friday, July 3, 2009

一段感情的萌芽

原来亲眼看着一段感情萌芽, 是那么的欣慰....

一个星期前的她们还在纠缠不清,身边的人看了都在替他们心急...
现在回想起来,还真的不了解他们到底在等什么...
明明彼此就互相喜欢...但又没有勇气在一起...
当时的我看了,真的急死了!!!

还好,我的等待,终于有了结果...
庆幸的,是一个令人满意的结果...
眼看身边又多了一对情侣,心里的感觉,真的难以形容....
第一次看着两个人, 从相遇,相识,到后来相爱...

希望他们能够长长久久...哦!!!

Friday, June 12, 2009

心魔

学了两个星期...
心里总是忐忑不安...
上每一堂课之前都很害怕...
到底我在害怕什么??

来才发现,原来我害怕说英语...
因为自己的英文本来就不好,一向来都不敢在别人面前说英语...
现在几乎每一堂课都得说英文,而且还是要站在全班人的面前说...
我很害怕...

近加入了PHP,因为朋友加入了,所以自己也跟着加入....加上我真的很想学会一些 counselling skills...
后来才知道,每次meeting 都会有sharing( 我最害怕的)....
在meeting 的前一天,我把我的害怕告诉了朋友,她劝我要勇敢的面对才能克服心里障碍....
第二天到了meeting 的时候,我尽量放松心情,果然我真的没有那么害怕了,反而轻松了....
好开心哦!!!

后我都会尽量去面对我的心魔,!!!
加油!!!

Saturday, June 6, 2009

A Day with my NS friends

I have not update my blog for about two weeks already as I did not have the mood to write anything...
Most important is I did not know what to post...

Keke...


Today I finally have a topic to post on...
06 june...
as what I usually do every saturday, I woke up and turned on my labtop then started my day with facebook...

I have been addicted to restaurant city and barn buddy for the past few weeks...


After my lunch, i thought of continued with my restaurant city and barn buddy, but my phone rang...
It was Chris, am NS friend from Perlis who i din meet for a long time...

He
told me that he is in Ipoh and wanted to called me out for a drink...
so I went out and joined him and Sen Chong, another NS friend who stay in Ipoh too...

At first we went to Old Town kopitiem located in medan ipoh...

we spent about an hour there...
i found out that Chris wanted to see my friend Kar Yan so much...

so we decided to called Kar Yan out also...

but she was in pengkalan.... so far and she can't join us in ipoh garden...
at last we changed to the Old Town Kopitiem in pengkalan so that we can meet Kar Yan...


There, I met Kay Yan, my honey...damn miss her...!!!
is such
a loooooon time I din meet her already...
after I left the camp, i just met her for once...

very happy to meet her today...
we chat for about two hours there...
after that we left Old town for home...


Me and Honey Kar Yan

Me and Chris

Thursday, May 21, 2009

不会磨灭的伤痕

开已铺满灰尘的盒子...
翻着里面一样样精致的小礼物...
却发现里头差不多三分之二的东西背后都有着不开心的回忆...
这才了解,原来一直以来所收藏的...
都是那些不开心的回忆...
这个盒子...
每打开一次,心里就刺痛一次...

仔细想一想...
为什么要把那些不开心的回忆收着呢???
倒不如把所有的东西都丢掉吧!!
东西丢掉,不开心的回忆也一起丢掉...
原本受伤的心也能自动复原...
那该有多好啊!!!

是,
原来一切都不是所想象的...
东西可以丢掉,回忆可以删除...
但那伤口始终还会在...
就算痊愈了,也会留下疤痕...

一道深深的疤痕!!!
永远也消失不了...

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

老朋友

在家里闷了几个星期,每天呆在家里除了吃和睡,就是对着电脑...
过去几个星期的晚上都是平平无奇的过,这几天晚上总算有一些乐趣..
前几天晚上(忘了哪一天..哈哈),像平常一样我都会开facebook的restaurant city, 然后摆在那儿不管它...
突然发现有人在facebook 发了信息给我...
因为平常我都不会在哪儿跟朋友聊天,所以没什么朋友会在facebook 发信息给我...
在好奇心的驱使下,我跑去看那人到底是谁...
一看,

HY ONG: yap ke xin, long time no see you ald, how r u nw??

wah...这个人是谁?? 认错人吗??
我根本不认识他啊!!
于是我就问清楚他到底是谁...
他要我猜他是谁,并给了我一些提示...
他给的提示再加上他的名字,我大概猜到他是谁...
可是由于我怕猜错了么没面子,又再问多一些提示...

HY ONG: we are classmates during primary skul...

下我就更确定是他了...
真的很久没跟这位朋友联络了,大概有十年了吧!!!
自从三年级他跳班过后就很少跟他联络,后来是完全失去联络了...
真的很开心能在与他聊天...

Ong Hong Yao 王泓X(sry..my fren...中文名最后一个字在拼音里找不到)..
这位老朋友阿...
小的时候,老爱跟我唱反调...
由于我们从一年级到三年级担任的职位都是一样的(再加上大家的意见应该不一样吧..不晓得)...
所以我们总是看对方不顺眼...
从一,二年级当班长,到三年级的巡察团长,我们两个都刚巧是拍档,而且还每天‘互相残杀’...
可是,有的时候我们还能够像朋友一样玩在一块儿,真不晓得当时的我们到底是朋友还是对敌...Haha...
因为我们的妈妈都是老师,而且是同事,所以我们见面的机会比较多...
每天放学过后,我们一大群老师的儿女们都会聚在一起,玩在一块儿...
(好怀念那个时候,很开心)
如果没记错,当时我们应该也能算是好朋友吧...!!!haha...

知不觉十年过去了,大家没联络这么多年了,可是一聊起天来一点也不觉得陌生...
跟他聊天的时候,好像回到了以前小学的时候...

谢他,让我能再回忆以前的每一件快乐的童年...
老朋友,希望以后能有机会真的面对面聊个痛快...(haha...他现在人在日本...)
也希望这位老朋友在日本一切安好咯!!(当然好,那么享受)...

Finally result is out!!!

Finally, the result came out 19th morning..
i felt relief once i got my result...
although i did not hit my target...
but the result was average...not good but not too bad also...
most importantly is...I CAN PROCEED TO DEGREE COURSE...
which means that i am no longer suffering for those subjects that i am not interested in...

PSYCHOLOGY...
I am coming...!!!

Congratulations to all my coursemates who are also proceeding to the degree...

Sunday, May 17, 2009

1st Anniversary...

hmhm...

Spent the whole day with my bebe...
just celebrated our very first anniversary...
we went out for a movie 'angels and demons'...is quite nice...
spent a happy day with bebe although some tiny little problem happened...it does matter... I'm still very happy neh...keke...


One year already ler...so fast...
just seem like yesterday when i first knew bebe...
But thanks to my bebe for your love and caring...and also your thanks for tolerating to all my 'xiao jie pi qi'...
I love you...



Tired...sleep ler...
sweet dream...

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

感恩的故事

天在网上看到了一则有意思的故事...一则关于感恩的故事:

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一个女孩跟妈妈大吵了一架后,气得夺门而出,决定再也不回到那个讨厌的家了。一整天他都在外头闲逛着,肚子饿得咕噜咕噜叫,但由于刚才跟妈妈吵架是夺门而出,所以身上连一毛钱也没有,可是她又拉不下脸回家吃饭,只好饿着肚子了。

直到了晚上,他来到了一家面摊旁,闻着那阵阵的面香味,小女孩真的很想吃一碗,可是口袋空空的也只能吞口水了。


突然,老板亲切地问:“你要不要吃面啊?”
小女孩不好意思的回答:“嗯!可是我没带钱...”
老板听了大笑说 :“哈哈!没关系,今天就算老板请客!”

小女孩听了简直不敢相信自己的耳朵。她兴奋得坐下来。不一会老板碰了一碗面放到了桌上,小女孩吃得津津有味。
并说:“老板,您认真好! 我们素不相识,您却对我那么好,不像我妈,根本不了解我的需要和想法,真气死人了!!!”


老板听了,脸上扬起了微笑说:“小妹妹,我才不过请你吃了一碗面而已,你就这么感激我,那么你的妈妈住了二十年的饭给你吃,你不是更感激她吗?”
听老板这么一说,小女孩顿时如梦初醒,面也没吃完就立刻飞奔回家了。

到家门前的小巷,就远远的看到妈妈,焦急地在门口东张西望。看到这情形,小女孩心里有一千句,一万句对不起想跟妈妈说。她走上前去,还没来得及开口,只见妈妈已仰了上前:“哎哟,你一整天跑到哪里去了,吓死我了!来,近来把手洗一洗,该吃晚餐了。”

一天晚上,小女孩才真正的体会到妈妈对她的爱。


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阳和月亮,那一个比较重要?
我们通常都会回答月亮吧...因为月亮在晚上,把黑暗的大地照亮,它的功劳远远超出了太阳。而太阳虽然会发光,但它在白天出现。白天已经够亮了,那它的出现不就是多余的吗?

仔细想想吧!!


实没有了太阳,世界是一片黑暗的。只是太阳一直都在,所以人们就忘了它的光亮。这也跟亲人一样。因为他们一直都在你的身边,所以你们也忘了他们的温暖。

天照顾你的人,你就觉得没什么; 若陌生人这样对你,你就认为他是好人;你家人的付出,你总觉得理所当然,甚至还会嫌;一旦外人对你做出类似行为,你就受宠若惊,感激不已。

往往就是这样....不是吗???

常常带有一颗感恩的心
人也会快了一些


Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Happy Birthday ,mummy!!!


1205

Mummy's birthday...

we bought a cake for her to celebrate with her...


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!
HEART YOU!!!



Sunday, May 10, 2009

母亲节的一则小故事

大家分享一则小故事:
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亲节到了,一位年近三十的男子携妻儿回家,年近花甲的母亲喜不自禁,一定要上街买点好菜招待孩子们,怎么劝也不行。

母亲说:“你们别拦我了,你们回来,妈煮一顿大餐请你们吃,不是受累,是喜欢啊!”

男子便说:“我陪您去吧!” 母亲乐呵呵的说:“好!好!你去,你说买啥,妈就买啥。”

亲年龄大了,双腿显得很不灵便,走路怎么也快不起来。 她提着菜篮,挨着男子边走边谈些家务事。“树老根多,人老话多” 母亲年纪大了,自然爱唠唠叨叨,别人不愿听,儿女们不能不听,哪怕装也得装着听。穿过了马路就是菜市场,母亲突然停下了脚步,把在篮跨在臂弯里,腾了右手,向男子伸了过去...

刹那间,男子的心震颤了起来。这是多么熟悉的动作啊!上小学时,男子每天都要穿过一条马路才能到学校。当时母亲担心儿子的安危,总是送他过马路后才折身赶去上班。横穿马路时,母亲总是会向男子伸出右手,把他的小手握在掌心,牵着走到马路的另一边,然后低下身子,一边遍遍地叮咛着:“有车就别过马路,过马路要和别人一起过。”

十多年过去了,昔日的小手如今已长成一双男子汉的大手了,而昔日年轻母亲的细嫩软手,已成为一双枯干节深的粗手了,但他牵手的动作依然如此娴熟。男子没把手放过去,而是伸出手从母亲的臂弯里取下篮子,提在手上,另一只手则伸出去握着母亲的手。

男子说:“小时候每逢过马路都是您牵我,今天过马路,就让我牵您吧!” 母亲的眼里闪过了惊喜,灿烂的笑容荡漾着。

男子又说:“妈!您腿不灵便,车多人挤,过马路时千万要左右看清楚,别跟车子抢时间。家里有什么难事,不管多忙,我们都会回来的。我是您一泡尿一泡屎,养起来的儿子,您还客气什么?”

亲看着儿子,眼里不知觉泛起了泪。牵着母亲的手过马路,男子心理有许多的爱意和感激,说不尽得心疼和感叹。
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你为身边的朋友付出的同时,别忘了家里还有一位抚养你长大,无论遇上什么挫折,伤心,烦恼或开心,她永远都会在身边支持你....那就是我们伟大的母亲!!!!

天下的妈妈们,母亲节快乐!!!

MUMMY,
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY
I LOVE YOU !!!

Saturday, May 9, 2009

友谊永固!!!

天约了好久没见的一班朋友聚一聚...
难得今天大家都到齐...
那种感觉真的难以形容...

我来说,她们不是一般的普通朋友...
她们是我以前中学时可以算共‘患难’的朋友...
大家在一起四年的日子里, 都经历过...
有开心的,难过的,生气的...

记得,
在大家还没有分开前,我特地弄了一个slide show给她们...
这个slide show 对我来说是一份很有意义的珍藏品...
当时只是希望她们不会忘记我这不起眼位朋友和留给大家一些快乐的回忆...
现在偶尔开来看,也会回味起很多以前的事...
不知道我的朋友们是否也会和我有同样的感受呢??

天虽然只有那短短的几个小时,能见到这班老朋友,我真的真的很开心...
希望我们以后不管距离多远,都要久久聚一次...
这样的感觉很好!!!


FRIENDSHIP
FOREVER
!!!!

Friday, May 8, 2009

十三个很有意思的句子 (13 Meaningful Sentences)

天没什么东西写,刚才检查邮箱时发现了一些很有意思的东西,所以想跟大家分享...

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.
我愛你不是因為你是誰,而是我在你面前可以是誰。

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
沒有男人或女人是值得你為他流眼淚,值得的那一位,不會要你哭。

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
那人不是你所想般愛你,但不代表那人不是全心全意地愛你。

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
一個真正的朋友是向著你伸手,觸動你心靈的人。

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
掛念一個人最差的方式,就是你坐在他身旁,而知道你不能擁有他。

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
就算你不快樂也不要皺眉,因為你永不知道誰會愛上你的笑容。

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
在世界裡你可能只是某人,但對某人你可能是全世界。

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
不要花時間在一個不會花時間在你身上的人。

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
可能神要我們在遇到那位對的人之前先遇上一些錯的人,讓我們遇到那位對先生/對小姐時懂得珍惜。

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
不要因為完結而哭,要為曾經發生而微笑。

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
這個世界永遠也會有一些傷害你的人,你要做的就是繼續去信人和小心你下次信的人。

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
在你嘗試了解其他人和盼望其他人明白你之前,先把你自己變成一個更好的人和了解你自 己。

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.
不要太努力去找,最好的東西是在你最預計不到的時候出現。

Monday, May 4, 2009

比较美好的世界

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离四川大地震已经快一年了,这场灾难损失惨重,造成了一场大悲剧...
这场地震震碎了不少脆弱的心灵...
更震毁了许多四川人美丽的家园...

《比较美好的世界》是为了四川大地震而创作的怎赈灾歌曲,主唱是华研群星,包括SHE,飞轮海,动力火车,星光四少,TANK,刘力扬...

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比较美好的世界
词:施人诚
曲:郑楠
唱:华研群星(SHE,飞轮海,动力火车,星光四少,TANK,刘力扬)

该想一些办法,让人们能继续相爱
我们到这个世界上来不是来互相伤害

笑声还给哭泣,把拥抱还个猜疑
把光还给暗,甜还给苦,安慰还给恐惧

颗心温度热一些,冰冷的就会溶解
我们可以给彼此一个比较温暖的,比较美好的世界

定有什么办法让明天还值得期待
不能帮太阳爬升上来,至少帮一朵花开

眼睛还给眺望,把天空还给翅膀
路还给勇敢,海还给船,小孩还给梦想

双手付出多一些,不变的就会改变
下一次我们再见,约在比较快乐的,比较美好的世界

能够慢慢的完美这个人间的残缺
下一次我们再见,约在比较和平的

比较美好的世界

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望灾民们都能振作起来...
让我们为在灾难中牺牲的受害者哀悼...





Fate...I have brought up the topic... !!!

Somebody cannot read my blog...
and the reason is I always post it in chinese and he can't read chinese...
hmhm...I m so so sorry...
I will try my best to write my future posts in english...
sorry Calvin...

Finally I brought up the topic and discussed with her again...
at first I really afraid that I have made a wrong decision that to talk to her about my feelings...
so before we started the talk I told her not to be sad and unhappy as my purpose is just to let her know about what i think and wanted to know hers as well...

At last, although it doesn't have an ending for our discussion because she needed to leave the conversation for some reasons...
at that moment, I felt that i had left down a heavy burden which burdened me for the past eleven and a half months...
I felt tired of it...felt tired of guessing what she think of me all these long...and today, I have got all the answers that I wanted...maybe not all the question that I asked being answered, but at least half of them did...

OnE thing I realised from that is...
Fate is not what you can control as u like...we can change everything but not fate...
what happened between me and her proved what I just mention...
Fate brought us together, Fate brought us to be best friends, fate brought us to suffer from friendship problem, and nw fate brought us back to normal friends...
All these happened because of FATE!!!

For the past eleven and a half months in kampar...everything changed...
but one thing that is not change...and it will not change in the future...
that is my love to her...
I always care about her like last time...maybe it is just different compare to last time...
we want each other to be happy so we let each other go...and set each other free...

Hope u can be as happy as last time...and sorry for what i have done to u...
i know tat is wasn't all my fault, but at least half of them were...


SORRY, my friend...
you are always my
BEST FRIEND


Saturday, May 2, 2009

Pretty Bride

This morning i was asked to accompany my sis to try on the wedding gown...

When I first stepped into the shop, my first feeling is like I had went into a heaven...
I felt comfortable there...
we were requested to take off our shoes before going into the shop...
there, I found a white colour grand piano putting right in front of the shop...
I was attracted by the grand view of the whole shop...
there were many wedding dresses and gowns with all kind of colours hanging there...

Later, my sis started to choose on the wedding gown...
sis took a few gowns that she like and tried on it...
i realised that wearing a gown is not an easy task as it needed a helper to help to zip and make sure the gown was wore in a correct way...

She looked definitely ATTRACTIVE and BEAUTIFUL when she put on the gown...
(wondering will i look as pretty as her when the time comes to my turn to put on a beautiful gown??)
we had spent about 3 hours there...


Home Sweet Home!!!

Finally I am back to my hometown...
IPOH...
after all my exams over...

This time I am going to have one month break...
wondering what can I do during the break...
eat, sleep and play throughout the whole month??
lepak in the shopping mall??
or WORK??
so started to plan for that...

I have spent an hour to think about that...
but it seem like things didn't happen as what i expected...
Omg...is hard for me to decide whether to find a part time job or not...
if I choose to work...
are there any shop that going to hire me who wants to work only for ONE MONTH??
plus I do not have the desire to work...because I am lazy...haha...
BUT...

if I don't work...
what can I do during the one month break??
I can't just stay at home and do nothing...

At last, my laziness won!!!
I choose to stay at home...maybe sometimes can go out for a walk with friends...
haha...
I am looking forward to the holiday...

ZZZZ...
tiring now...
is midnight...I think I should sleep ler...

Happy Holiday to all my UTAR friends...!!!

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Happy Birthday to My Honey

...
是一位朋友的生日...
一到十二点,我就迫不及待的拿起电话拨电祝福她...
由于我身在金宝,所以没能跟她庆祝(虽然人在怡保也未必会跟她庆祝...哈哈)...
她的声音听起来好像很开心...
我们聊了很久...
一下就聊我们怎么认识,一下就聊我们在营里发生的一些有趣的事...
和她聊天之际,我回忆起很多和她在营里的回忆...
我们怎么认识,怎么成为好朋友,怎么互相帮忙...

想起了这些,我开始觉得百感交集...
开心的是我们拥有很多开心的回忆,离营后还能继续联络...
伤感的是我们已经不能像在营里一样, 天天都见面...
除此之外,心里还存有一份愧疚...
愧疚的是当时为什么我选择了提早离开营地,把这好朋友丢在那里...
还记得,
当时的她,哭成了泪人,别人还以为我在欺负她呢!!!
herg...说到哭...
她老爱哭,谁要离开他都会哭,还哭得很厉害!!!
我要走的前一天,你就像个没人要的可怜小猫一样,哭得双眼红肿,看了真让人心痛...
当时我就已经觉得很内疚了,明知道你不想我离开,我最后还是选择了离开...
(hmhm...honey a...我不是故意要让你伤心的,对不起啊!!)

我们聊了大概一个小时吧,聊到她的手机没有电关机了,我们才停!!!
天啊,挂了电话后才发现,嘴巴虽然已经停止了,但脑海里还是不停地在想...
一直在想过去发生的每一件事...
躺在床上一直在想...
去年的今天,我们还一再她的房里为你庆祝生日呢,我们还吵到连jurulatih 都来骂我们...现在回忆起都觉得好笑...哈哈...
就这样一事想到睡着了....

在一个奇妙的机缘下,我们认识了对方,成为了好朋友...
这一切我永远都不会忘记的...
我的好朋友,好honey...
嘉欣,生日快乐!!!
愿你永远快快乐乐,幸幸福福...